I am in this same river. I can’t much help it. I admit it: I’m racist. The other night I saw a group (or maybe a pack ) or white teenagers

I am in this same river. I can’t much help it. I admit it: I’m racist. The other night I saw a group or maybe a pack or white teenagers standing in a vacant lot, clustered around a 4×4, and I crossed the street to avoid them; had they been black, I probably would have taken another street entirely. And I’m misogynistic. I admit that, too. I’m a shitty cook, and a worse house cleaner, probably in great measure because I’ve internalized the notion that these are woman’s work. Of course, I never admit that’s why I don’t do them: I always say I just don’t much enjoy those activities which is true enough; and it’s true enough also that many women don’t enjoy them either, and in any case, I’ve got better things to do, like write books and teach classes where I feel morally superior to pimps. And naturally I value money over life. Why else would I own a computer with a hard drive put together in Thailand by women dying of job-induced cancer Why else would I own shirts mad in a sweatshop in Bangladesh, and shoes put together in Mexico The truth is that, although many of my best friends are people of color as the cliche goes, and other of my best friends are women, I am part of this river: I benefit from the exploitation of others, and I do not much want to sacrifice this privilege. I am, after all, civilized, and have gained a taste for ‘comforts and elegancies’ which can be gained only through the coercion of slavery. The truth is that like most others who benefit from this deep and broad river, I would probably rather die and maybe even kill, or better, have someone kill for me than trade places with the men, women, and children who made my computer, my shirt, my shoes.


Derrick Jensen,

The Culture of Make Believe

I don’t know who had the training of you,” he continued doggedly, “but your morals are shocking. You spent a night in my bed, remember, after

I don’t know who had the training of you,’ he continued doggedly, ‘but your morals are shocking. You spent a night in my bed, remember, after a night in a bawdy house. You go about collecting street urchins and letting inebriated vagabonds kiss you, and then you get into brawls in pawnshops. You are probably past all redemption, but I’m going to reform you anyhow. If you behave yourself, perhaps I’ll let you reform me on occasion, but I make no promises.


Loretta Chase,

Viscount Vagabond

When the little mouse, which was loved as none other was in the mouse-world, got into a trap one night and with a shrill scream forfeited its

When the little mouse, which was loved as none other was in the mouse-world, got into a trap one night and with a shrill scream forfeited its life for the sight of the bacon, all the mice in the district, in their holes were overcome by trembling and shaking; with eyes blinking uncontrollably they gazed at each other one by one, while their tails scraped the ground busily and senselessly. Then they came out, hesitantly, pushing one another, all drawn towards the scene of death. There it lay, the dear little mouse, its neck caught in the deadly iron, the little pink legs drawn up, and now stiff the feeble body that would so well have deserved a scrap of bacon.
The parents stood beside it and eyed their child’s remains.


Franz Kafka,

Blue Octavo Notebooks

My New Year’s Eve is always 2 July, the night before my birthday. That’s the night I make my resolutions. And this year scares the life out of

My New Year’s Eve is always 2 July, the night before my birthday. That’s the night I make my resolutions. And this year scares the life out of me, because no matter how successful, how good things appear, there is always a deep core of failure within me, although I am trying to deal with it. My biggest fear, this coming year, is that I will be waking up alone.

It makes me wonder how many bodies will be fished out of the Thames, how many decaying corpses will be found in one-room flats.

I’m just being realistic.


Tracey Emin,

Strangeland